Ever since I landed an amazing job at Revelist.com I have been lucky enough to make videos that help explain the experience of being a fat person in this world. You can find sarcastic videos like the day I found out I was fat to videos with deeper messages like – not allowing the number on a scale define who you are.
The mission of my blog was to help myself be a much bolder person. I wanted to be the person I knew I was on the inside. I turned that around and I used my biggest “flaw” and made it into a career.
As the success of the videos increased so has the hate. I have never been someone who lingers on the negative. I’ve always been upbeat and happy. But I would be a complete liar if I didn’t say that hate messages and comments have been taking a toll on my self-confidence. For the past few months, I have had a hard time looking at myself in the mirror. The constant battle of reminding myself that I am enough gets harder when strangers online tell you that you aren’t.
The result of these messages and comments have made it hard for me to truly accept my body like I once did. It hurts me to say that because it makes me feel like I let them win.
I didn’t realize how much it was affecting my self-esteem until I started going through these images I shot with my friend Stephanie Nadia. All I could see was my fuller belly. I was ready to delete those images and shoot an outfit that would be “flattering.”
I asked myself, why? Why should I hide my body just because others may think it’s unflattering? Regardless if I want to lose weight or not I deserve respect and to feel proud of who I am. I worked so hard to be as confident as I am. I get hundreds of messages daily from men and women of different walks of life thanking me for introducing them to a new world of self-love and body positivity. This was the reason why I decided to make this my career. If seeing my body and videos can help at least one person a day to feel better about themselves than it is all worth it.
So, as long as YOU want to read my words and watch my videos I will continue to make them. This is a reminder to all of you who may be having a hard time accepting and loving your body. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for your body and you don’t need to apologize.
Most items I am currently wearing are sold out. Check the links below for items that are similar.
Jacket: Old Navy sold out but similar one here.
Top: Old navy in stripes available here.
Shoes: Asos similar here.
Bag: Lovesick similar here.
Hat: Similar here.