It’s been 9 years since prom of ’08 happened and I still regret not going. I was so afraid and embarrassed about my body that I missed out on what could have been such a fun and memorable night.
I wasn’t always comfortable with my body. Before the days of posing in bathing suits and sexy lingerie, I hated the way I looked.
I dedicated a lot of my time to weight loss. Certain diets worked but I was never skinny enough. I spent so much time trying to reach my “weight goal” that I was missing out on life.
When I was younger I used to dream about the day I would finally be thin. I thought my problems would be magically solved.
I thought I would finally be brave enough to talk to cute guys and that high school would run so much smoother.
In the meantime, I made sure I was invisible. I dressed in baggy shirts and I was extremely awkward when I spoke to people.
I am such a silly and outgoing person but my friends in High School never saw that side of me.
That meant that I missed out on a lot. I didn’t go to prom because I was so afraid to have eyes on me.
Prom was the night all teenage girls were meant to feel like real life princesses. I would hear my friends talk about what they were going to wear and who they were going with.
I stood on the sideline wishing I would’ve allowed myself to be part of such an important night.
I remember my homeroom teacher insisting I go. Even the night before she offered to buy me a dress. I kindly declined even though I really wanted to go. I remember thinking that my skinny friends would look like the girls in the movies and I wouldn’t. I didn’t know that you could be fat and still look fierce.
I will never have prom night again and that is something that I will have to live with forever.
I realized that it’s not about what you wear or what size you are. Everyone deserves to experience life.
We shouldn’t let our fears stop us from living. There are so many things that we won’t be able to get back. It does not matter what size you are, you are allowed to live and experience life like everyone else. Don’t let your fears and insecurities stop you from living and experiencing life.
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